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The Evaluation – Details from My First Formal BDSM Session {Sir Week}

I arrive to the house at 7:45pm…definitely not the time that I wanted to arrive. I was still early but I wanted to arrive around 7:30 because I had my bags that I needed to set to the side because I was staying over for the weekend. Plus I also wanted enough time to sit in quiet for a bit to center myself. But instead I was running late for the time I set for myself and as I was walking through the door I was on the phone with my good girlfriend that I was using for my safety call. I told her if I didn’t call her by 10:10pm she should call me. Once off the phone with her, I made a quick bathroom trip and time was flying by. By the time I was settled I only had five minutes left to spare of my own time. He made it clear that from at least 8pm to 10pm that i’d be under strict control and I would not be allowed any sort of freedom of action once the session started.

At 7:55pm I laid on my stomach, hands crossed on the pillow on the bed and listened to one of the songs on my playlist to calm me down. I was excited but really nervous. The song I chose was I am Light by India Arie – if you’ve been a reader of the blog then you know music makes my world go round. I set an alarm to make sure that I did not get caught up in the music and was laying there past the time I needed to be up. I put my phone on speaker and focused on the words and my breathing to help center myself. At 8:00pm I went and sat on the chair in the next room as instructed until I got a text message from Sir. I was in the house but I had no clue where he was since the place the session was going to be was changed. He has a studio but it was a really rainy day so the studio wasn’t the best place for that evening. I get a message that says “Good Evening” so I popup and go to the entrance of a door because previously I was told to stay in that location until I got a text message and once I got the message to go a specific door. I start responding to his messages while standing in front of this door….until he sends a message and tells me to go upstairs. I get to the top of the stairs and all the doors are closed. I take a look at all the doors just to make sure I knew what was going on and then stood in front of the door like I was instructed too. I don’t knock, I just stand there and look at my phone for more instruction. As I looked down at my phone the door opens so I fumble to press the button on the side of my phone to turn the screen light off. He opens the door and he’s standing there in a nicely pressed black button down shirt, a greyish looking pair of slacks (although i’m not to sure because the room was dim) and I have no clue what he had on his feet but i’ll assume socks.

I walk in the room and it was dimly lite with only two candles on the night stand for light. I stand in the middle of the floor in front of the bed, he walks over, gets very close to me, rubs my arms then back and starts talking to me. He talks about how he’s happy to have me over, that the session hasn’t officially started yet and we have to do something important before we start. He sits me down on the bed, pulls up a camera and sits beside me. Then we record my consent for the session and he does this by asking me questions….the date, why i’m there, that i’m a willing participate and I understand what i’m getting myself into etc. I’m sure I looked like a total hostage in that video lol because I was so nervous. Once that was done he had me stand up and he explained to me what rules I was responsible for and what the consequences would be if I didn’t adhere to the rules. For example everything I say is to be followed with a Sir. The first time I don’t do it i’d get a warning but anything past that i’d get five strikes. At the snap of his finger the session began.

I snapped a really quick pic as I was rushing out the door! I was instructed to wear all black – black leggings, black top, black socks etc

He snaps his finger and it begins. Up until this point I was not making any eye contact with him, I kind of just had my head down because I wasn’t sure. He tells me to raise my head and not hold it low but not to make any direct eye contact. He blindfolds me and starts by giving me instruction on what was to happen next. He touches me with a cane and explains that I am to move and how to move when he touches my various parts. For example if he touches my arm I am to raise it and if he touches my ass then I am to move forward. It took me a few minutes to really grasp what I was to be doing. He touched me once to the leg and I couldn’t exactly remember if I was supposed to lift it or move forward so I sort of stood there like a deer caught in headlights. He swiftly hit my leg with the cane and there was no question that I felt it nor was there any question on if I remembered what I was supposed to do. He touched my ass midway into the process ever so slightly with the cane and I wasn’t sure so I thought for a second and then I moved. I didn’t want to move and then realize he didn’t touch me. Let’s just say wearing a blindfold can leave you a bit disoriented. He didn’t seem to be pleased when he said “You seem hesitant” and I explained “Sorry Sir, I was unsure. I did not feel it at first” . We started this in the room and as he touched I followed his instructions. Because I was blindfolded I had no clue where these movements were taking me, I assumed I was walking around the same room. In the moment I really hadn’t given it any thought because I was so focused on following the instructions. At one point he stops me and asks me to stretch my arm out . I stretch one arm out and I touch a wall. He instructs me to stretch out my other arm and I cant stretch it out fully. He then asks where I am and I really had to think because I felt like I was in a closet. So I think of the next smallest place and I say the hallway..he says that’s right. He asks whats to the left and right of me, I guess one thing right and the other wrong. He touches me with the cane and instructs me to take small steps….then he stops me. He asks if I know where I am now?….I absolutely know where I am because I realize my foot is at the top of the steps and one more step I could’ve gone tumbling down the stairs. He pulls me close and holds me by my waist at the top of the stairs, he lets me know that he will not allow me to fall down the steps, that he has me and he begins to talk to me about the foundation of a D/s relationship and how trust is an important part.

I make my way back into the room the same way that I made it into the hallway with the cane game. He tapped various parts of my body and I moved when I felt the touch of cane. I end up back where I begin standing in front of the bed. He turns me around facing the bed and asks me to hold my hand out. I hold my out and he places something in it and asks what do I think it is. I’m still blindfolded so I feel on it a bit and I can tell that its leather, has a clasp and its small so I say a leather bracelet. He corrects me and says its a leather cuff. He takes the cuffs and places them on my wrists. Up next he hands me something different…I feel it and it feels the same but bigger so I say a leather cuff for my leg. He says yes – instructs me to lift my leg individually and place them on the bed as he puts the cuff on my ankles. Next he places something else in my hand and I feel it…and of course it feels the same just bigger – leather with a clasp. I say its a collar and he says Yes. As he puts the collar on me he starts to talk me about the importance of the collar and the role it plays in the house. Once that was complete he turns me around and i’m standing there blindfolded with two leather cuffs on my wrist, two leather cuffs on my ankles and a leather collar around my neck.

Sir : “How anxious are you feeling?” Sadie : “On a scale from 1 – 10 Sir?” Sir : “Yes” Sadie : “I’m a five, Sir” Sir : “What if I told you this next part will hurt?” Sadie : “Then it would probably be about an 8 to 9 Sir”

He turns me around and he helps me lay on the bed in an X face down. I still have my blindfold on I start to hear what I think is a jar of coins. Because the blindfold is on i’m not really sure what that sound is but the sound most closely resembled coins. He then pours the “coins” on my lower back and all I could think was”This is cold, what could we be doing with coins?” . I continue to lay there and as i’m laying my hands and feet are being tied to the bed. Once tied he takes off my blindfold since I have an aversion to being tied and blindfolded at the same time. He gives me instruction on whats to happen to next. I’ll spare you all the detail and give the abridged version – when I feel the cane on any part of my body I am to say what part of my body its touching. He’d touch my leg and i’d say that’s my upper thigh on my right side….you get my drift. We did this from some time and I learned there is a difference between being touched with a cane and being hit with one. After that the intensity was heightened and we went through a series where I was hit with either the cane or a his belt. And when I was hit I had to say how it felt to me, if it felt good i’d say that. If it hurt, I would say that. If it hurt but felt good I would say that as well. The way in which the hits came where pretty repetitive in the beginning and I could anticipate the next hit coming. It was almost like snapping your fingers at an upbeat tempo..Snap..hit Snap..my response Snap…hit Snap…my response. However the feeling was not repetitive and I did not know what to expect. So it could be..Snap…that hurt, Snap..feels good, Snap…good, Snap..hurt, Snap..hurt, Snap…hurt but feels good. Somewhere in between at random moments the hitachi wand would be placed on my pussy. But then it was brought up another notch and now where I had enough time to follow instructions between hits and say how I felt – the hits were now coming so fast back to back that there was no room to do fully do as instructed. The moment I would open my mouth to say “That feels”…hit! And now that…is a total mind fuck. A total mind fuck because your mind doesn’t have the time to process the feeling before the next hit comes and not only does your mind not have time to process the feeling…the intensity of each hit is different so your mind becomes scrambled between good feelings, bad feelings and hurts so good feelings. The amount of constant , consistent, intense, repetitious stimulation is a lot. Oh and let’s not forget that you’re strapped to a bed with no way to move on top of this hyper stimulation.

At one point I don’t feel the cane or belt but I start to feel something rolling on my foot. I couldn’t tell what it was and I wasn’t really sure how I felt about it . It was like at first at it tickled but then right at the sole of my foot it hurt but in different way… a sensitive to touch kind of hurt. Then he started to roll this device up my leg…and I immediately knew how I felt about it. It was uncomfortable and it hurt but again a hurt that I wasn’t used to. So it may have more discomfort than actual full on hurt. As he rolled this device on different parts of my body I was still instructed to tell him how it felt to me..of course “It hurts Sir” was my response every time I felt it. This new feeling was then entered into everything else that was going on – it was now being strapped to the bed, hit with a cane, rolled on with the device, hit with a belt and a hitachi wand vibrating my pussy all the while. Now that became a very overwhelming feeling because it was the up of it feeling good followed by the down of the not so good and at a pace that just kept it coming and all at the same time. I could feel every emotion in my body start to well up during a time when it was feeling good then that was followed up by a roll up my back and immediately after ran across my back. As I started to say how I was feelings I feel the tears running down my face and you could hear it in my voice when I responded. I could not hold back that emotion even if I wanted to. It felt like such a good release, it wasn’t “crying” in a normal hurt person kind of way it was the release of everything that I was feeling and it was good.

He came and sat up next to me at the head of the bed. He rubbed and spoke to me about the feeling that I was having in that moment. He unstrapped me, handed me the bottle of water he had for me and some tissue. I drank some water and whipped my face. He asked if I needed a break and I said No, Sir. I sit up on the bed and he blindfolds me. Whenever I was not tied then I was blindfolded. He sits me on the floor in front of the bed with my back up against it. I sat there and listened. I could hear him undoing his pants and taking them off…I was excited. Next thing you know I could feel the head of his cock at my mouth and then shortly after in the back of my throat. I got a bit of gag practice which I enjoyed and that was followed up by a rough fucking which I also enjoyed very much.

After this fucking he places the hitachi wand up against my pussy while I laid on my stomach and instructed me to cum for him as he moved it around. It was feeling good but I couldn’t cum, I’m starting to notice that I can only cum from masturbation in certain positions and often times with very specific stimulus. He instructs me to roll over onto my back and hands me the wand. He tells me to make myself cum but this time when I’m ready to cum I have to ask his permission. So I laid there on my back thinking about everything that transpired that evening…how good his cock felt deep inside of me, how nice the belt felt up against my ass, how great it felt to feel him at the back of my throat. But then he takes my hand and removes the wand. He hands me my phone and it’s 10:15pm my good girlfriend who is my safety call is calling. He directs me to answer it and I let her know everything is okay, I’m safe and I’ll call her the next day. I absolutely sounded like I was high on that call since just minutes before I had this wand vibrating on my pussy. I put the phone down and got back to thinking as he played with my nipples. Moments later I could feel every tingle in my body start to surge and I knew I was right on the cusp of an explosion. I say “Sir, can I cum please?” to my surprise he says “No, not yet” and tells me to hold off. In that moment I think to myself “uh oh I’m in trouble” because I can’t control my orgasms in that way and once I start I can’t stop. So I keep the wand in place on my clit but move it just slightly to the left in hopes that it’ll bring me back down some. By this time my breathing has picked up significantly because I’m on edge. Then he says it’s okay for me to cum and oh what a wonderful feeling it was. It was so intense, I could feel everything and I was quite loud. I could tell almost immediately that this was going to be messy. As I’m cumming I say “Thank you Sir, I’m sorry I wet the bed” because I could feel a river running from my pussy. We recently discovered that I can gush and experience female ejaculation. I’m not one hundred percent sure on when and why it happens or how it’s triggered but it feels amazing. It’s such a good release. He gets a towel and tells me to lift my hips as he places it under me. I laid there in pure bliss. But it was not over, he was not done. He proceeded to nicely fuck me for at least another 30 minutes following that point. After he stood me up to take off my leather cuffs, collar & anklets and I was a bit wobbly.

The session was about 3 1/2 hours and ended just after 11pm….I want to say it was 11:17 when he picked up my phone and we looked at the time after instructing me to lay back. By the end of it I was absolutely exhausted. I was totally spent both mentally and physically but I was also in total bliss. We transitioned into aftercare. As I laid on my back on the bed he sat by my head and rubbed my body softly as he talked to me in my ear in a nice soothing tone. He went over his thoughts on the session, everything we went over in the session and the two rules I was responsible for. He asked me how I was feeling and what I needed….the first thing I said was I needed to just lay there then a nice bath. I literally needed to just lay still and collect my thoughts. He went downstairs got towels, wash clothes and my aftercare bag. I was instructed to lay there as long as I needed. After I laid there for a bit, I took my aftercare kit to the bathroom with me. I had all intentions before the session started to take a nice soothing bath afterwards. However I was beat and when I got in the bathroom I had no desire to sit and wait while the tub filled. I instead decided the quick route and turned on the shower and just laid in the floor of the tub for a bit. It felt amazing…. – Sadie ❤

Monday’s blog for Sir Week : Waiting with Bated Breath – The Emails I’d Been Waiting For Tuesday’s blog for Sir Week : My BDSM Aftercare Kit – What’s in it and why? Wednesday’s blog for Sir Week : “He’s Just Tryna Fuck A lot”

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